I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane


Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie



why did i have a big sigh when i heard this song ???
shit ...

Harini baru hari pertama, pagi pagi aku da meraung raung sakit..
Aku pon tak paham apa masalah aku…da beberapa lama da ni benda ni berterusan
Aku jumpa doctor, masih same…doctor kate ……..
Hmm….



Sampai bila aku kena menghadap benda ni, sampai bila aku kena tanggung…
Aku da tak larat sangat sangat
Satu ape aku da tak boleh nak dapatkan konsentrasi


Apa mungkin yang harus aku buat …


Aku buntu ….

pilu .......... ade





sedih .......... ade





bangge .......... biase





happy .......... tiada





terkilan .......... sangat





kecewa .......... sangat





menyesal .......... ade





bunga .......... tiada





orang .......... tiada





bertakung .......... ade








canselor je yang tau aku bergenang depan die ...

ape semua tau turun naik aku !

Minggu lepas, aku tidur …
Aku jaga, menggigil
Bangun, terduduk …
Telan pil, paksa sambung
Pergi kerja, huyung hayang

Due hari lepas tu, benda sama …

Kelmarin, bawak kereta, nampak dua …
Pergi kerja, collapse 3, 4 minit
Jumpa doctor …
Doctor cakap ………………


Insyaallah, aku masih punya masa untuk lihat keindahan dunia
Balik rumah, mak tanya ….
Sorry mak, I have to lie …. Orang tak mau susahkan hati mak lagi ……
=)

Tiba tiba hari ni aku masih terhuyung haying
Urgh ….
Jangan la buat pasal – malam ni nak gerak jauh aku kena drive …
Hmm….

Semoga diberkati….